urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tothesirensdeaf tothesirensdeaf tothesirensdeaf 2004-11-21T18:19:05Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tothesirensdeaf:1780 2004-11-21T18:19:05Z 2004-11-21T18:19:05Z why must i work on such a gorgeous day<br />where is the time to picnic<br />to cloud watch <br /><br />i haven't flown a kite in far too long<br />the grass is definately greener beneath me<br />where i imagine i'm standing<br /><br />against it<br />all odds<br /><br />i want to go to the source <br />i want to find my inspiration<br />to renew my faith<br /><br />for once to speak daringly for myself <br />amid the contraband of fleeting hearts<br />to get unscrewed<br />clear my intentions<br /><br />perhaps simply to nap<br />before i choose to go make money urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tothesirensdeaf:1466 2004-11-04T22:33:09Z 2004-11-04T22:36:35Z pumped my afternoon with 30 minutes of porn<br />i find the time<br />to feel death<br />my <br />eyes blankly<br /><br /><br />drown into the thicket <br />of all that pussy <br />cat <br />avoided my touch<br />last night<br />lay on the couch <br />purrrring <br />a tiny motor <br />windup doll<br />fast asleep a damned shred <br />of innocence <br /><br /><br />a thirsty groan echoes <br />through a vacant office frame <br />under construction<br />bouncing off cold steel beams<br />and concrete floors<br />pathetically into the night<br />this is the fuqhing<br />making me ill<br />this is what my body feels like urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tothesirensdeaf:1222 2004-11-03T23:56:08Z 2004-11-03T23:56:08Z i woke up to a motherfucking red nation today<br />we've come full circle my friends<br />didn't this happen four years ago<br />isn't this exactly the same situation<br />what must the world be thinking<br />a massive sleep carries history<br />not much leg room<br />total delusion total dejavu<br />the frequencies spilling out the tele are fucking with our brains<br />yes kids, there is permanent damage<br /><br />i will build a fortress<br />i will deny all solicitors<br /><br />whatever you do<br />don't let them cram you<br />be an army of oneness <br />a singularity against heavy pride<br />a piercing eternal aperture against racism<br />every human being is a deep light<br /><br />question authority <br />fear relies on haziness<br />consume less<br />minimize your inventory<br />utilize more<br />recognize your basic needs<br />evaluate all other needs immediately<br />isolate yourself for at least an hour<br /><br />listen to more music without lyrics urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tothesirensdeaf:1018 2004-10-28T09:19:43Z 2004-10-28T09:19:43Z i rang you <br />you managed <br />just fine <br />seems yesterday<br />my heart sinks<br />everytime<br />eavesdropping<br />so many plans<br />missing<br />unfinished projects<br />abandoned dreams<br />we had with each other<br />will you ever come back<br />for the bracelet<br />we are stranded in the <br />middle of this book<br />just the way you left it<br />like time stopped <br />beside my bed<br />i haven't the energy <br />anymore<br />to recall<br />reconcile<br />the memoirs lie<br />nonetheless<br />i still dress up<br />for you urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tothesirensdeaf:541 2004-10-27T13:08:55Z 2004-10-27T13:08:55Z i look for you in my dreams<br />to beg of you<br />the answers<br />please<br />believe<br /><br />that we belong<br /><br />play with me this game<br />just a little longer<br />i know the tape is running out<br />i can hear its spool rattling<br />don't ever underestimate me<br /><br />for when it is done<br />i will be sanctioned<br />to doing wicked things<br /><br />a ruined body<br />a filthy mind<br /><br />may you destroy<br />every letter i have written you<br />every song i have dedicated you<br />for both our sakes<br /><br />just end up in my bed tonight urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tothesirensdeaf:460 2004-10-15T05:14:58Z 2004-10-15T05:14:58Z DETOX UNTRAIN WAKE UP.